A cup of chocolate drink and a cushioned chair is enough to make you philosophical and think about life. That's what I have been doing for the past 1 month. When you have semester exams and nothing to study, this is how it ends. Rewinding back to 2 years, thinking how I was makes me laugh. I used to run to every class and wave and greet everyone with so much excitement. That's how hyper I was.
These two years has changed everything. Few things make me happy and few don't. The fact that i have become matured makes me proud at the same time sad. This maturity made my face the typical 'Poker Face'. I used to be more expressive than this. But right now I'm in this phase of analysing how to be matured and crazy at the same time.
I took an imaginary portion from my part, tore it and threw it away. That was a poisonous portion that made my whole body toxic. Well people call it Ego. Guess what? Getting my good old friends back again. This ego kills people. Its addictive like a cigarette. Once you experience that feel, you start liking it. That's only when people come behind you knowing about your ego.
Well, obviously you become the centre of attraction. But nothing is permanent. It just fades away and that's when you realise how poisoned you have become. And by the time you realise, you won't have anyone by your side. Solitude is what you all have. I hope you don't want that. No one wants that in fact. Change is evident, but don't become a lifeless monster. Wish we can always remain a kid, with no ego and be free. Let half of your soul still be filled with blossoms and colours. Feeling retrospective.
